Deep words!

Life is like school with lessons and tests..the pain you feel is a wrong..the change you make is a right..I woke up and became more aware..that made me realize and change the direction I was walking..thoughts and living..God knows my mind..and how life can blind me from seeing the potential..then I get a reassurance that everything is going to be good..I'm not a lone through all this..I can't forget how far I've come..the respect is what keeps me in a good nature..from friends..friends of friends..people I just met and have a conversation with..some who heard what happened but haven't seen me since and do in the street..on the bus..mall..resto..its a bless meeting..God keeps reminding me there's love in all this..I'm on the next chapter..writing words for the new page..everything is done with..justice is justice..small or big..everyday wake and sleep to your own "mistake"..you'll reap what you sowed..that's the balance of life..2 weeks ago after church someone asked to speak with me and my sis..beyond what was spoken about..its who he is..he seen no hate in my reaction and voice when he introduced himself to me..after our talk he felt so much weight has been lifted off his chest..I seen the sincerity in his eyes..there's two Sam's..the one you see and the one you don't..physical and mental..mental pain doesn't hurt but you can't escape from your mind..only through death..even when you sleep your mind is still working..so this is all in my mind I sleep and wake to this..that's why I can be solo..I live in my mind..with No worries..my sister said I have a poker face..that's a face with no emotion..you can't tell what I'm feeling..that's how it is when I'm in a thinking mode..no eye contact just focused on my thoughts and destination..this took away the ability to go school to get a job after..so I'll go to school just for knowledge..no grades..tests..exams or a diploma..I'm going to do creative writing..I'll learn more writing skills to express my thoughts with a deeper understanding my dream is to put all of this into a book when all my plans come together..one door closed so I'm opening another!