REAL DEEP

My pain is anger and frustration not sadness or disbelief..no one can see it.. cause its silent..which I hide with money..clothes..work outs..and fake smiles..only time I have a natural smile is when I find humor in the weirdest things..what isn't funny for you is hilarious for me..RT..I live a very serious life..ppl like be happy your a live.. I been living this my 4th chance at it..I just want to be live MY life not what others think or feel I should..now I live a broken dream..cause my dream was going to be a reality..but this happened two days before..all I got are sisters..so girls are my biggest weakness..I had no reason to second guess an invite..I have a strong believe with a weak faith..God has been keeping me a live..I did a neuro evaluation and the results said it'll be difficult going back to school and re-doing that trade because of how much information I'd have to hold in my mind and this injury hit certain parts that would make it even harder to re-do..there's Many ways of making money..Trust..school was my happiness and going to put me in a good money making position then this took that away..I told them I'm not going to volunteer that's making someone else happy when I'm not which doesn't make sense..I been forgetting myself too much..sto I'm going to go and re-do that trade..I overcame everything the books and doctors said..so I won't be focused on that evaluation..~because apart from what every scan and tests say that doesn't depict my will for success..RT!~I have no hate they satisfied their pleasure and I satisfied my will to survive under God and protected by His hands!..don't be against that Kony thing if you give killers props and respect..trust..I lost some ppl and their killers get respect for what they did..if I died they would get the same..you see?killers have a low value about life..doesn't matter who you are and why..that's trying to play God because only He can take a life..He gave us the ability to make a life not take one..killers better turn atheist after because if you believe in God..He will ask how did it feel to be Me for a second?