My mind state is of this reality that I live..I couldn't stop but accepted what happened..some learning is silent to ears..blind to eyes..but a lesson to the mind..only time will have me realize..i'm cool..calm and patient..when you been through what I have you got to believe in God..because His lessons are in silence with the most learning..my scars are from all that learning..pain and pleasure in the unknown..didn't know how far I'd end up..but I am where I am now because of that trust and belief..life is a learning lesson..not everyone's lesson is the same..but there's a learning in everything..its your choice for what and how your going to learn..these lessons were not academic but physical..mental and spiritual..the 3 points in all of us..learnt so much the answers of pain have designed my body..all these negatives are positives!