My mind state is of this reality that I live..I couldn't stop but accepted what happened..some learning is silent to ears..blind to eyes..but a lesson to the mind..only time will have me realize..i'm cool..calm and patient..when you been through what I have you got to believe in God..because His lessons are in silence with the most learning..my scars are from all that learning..pain and pleasure in the unknown..didn't know how far I'd end up..but I am where I am now because of that trust and belief..life is a learning lesson..not everyone's lesson is the same..but there's a learning in everything..its your choice for what and how your going to learn..these lessons were not academic but physical..mental and spiritual..the 3 points in all of us..learnt so much the answers of pain have designed my body..all these negatives are positives!

Overcame without doubts or expectations..everyday is a new page to the book of life..already written three chapters..this the fourth..filled with the most learning and goals..solid..survivor..stopped thinking 'if this didn't happen'..no if's..maybe I needed this change..going to make the best of this!

Quick thought!

It's good I can keep rain away from sunshine and bring light to a dark point..with my mentality..I don't act like this did anything..just got explanations and analogies..with a tough way of thinking..its how much you want something that will determine your ambition to achieve!

Life!

God protected me when I couldnt defend myself at birth..that was the 1st sign..at 18 and 22 He protected me again..all those signs solidified my believe and opened this reality I live in..there`s no life without God..I wouldnt still be alive if it wasn`t for His protection..I got to keep believing..its the hardest keeping sane when there`s a 100 reasons not to be tied to you!

Love

Love is like a funnel two sides meet and travel in one direction together..love isn't a one way route..road..or privilege for one side..it's a feeling not a thought..a thought of love is a day dream..you can control what and how to think..not how and what to feel..marked with scars of hate only one thing can erase them..Love!

Faith!

When I got stabbed that opened eyes of a way of thinking..living..and being..then this happened..bringing my faith back..I don't think..I felt the blessing..if it wasn't for God I wouldn't be a miracle..this got my mind..broke it into pieces and is build me back..you don't think faith you feel it..its easier to control a thought than a feeling so don't ideologize your faith!

Expectations!

Expectations open disappointments..live life with no expectations..goals are well thought out..a success is planned..happiness is what you make of it..love can't be expected..it's like life complicated!

Simple life!

I live a very simple life..anything that complicates that simplicity gets me angry..thats fire to me..one emotion I was never able to control..with this brain injury it makes it harder..i'm so calm..quiet..work out a lot..write my thoughts down..anything I want to do I do with no stress and worries as a motto!

Understanding & Reactions!

Understand and realize..everyone is not the same..so their reactions won't be either..if you have no understanding ..don't question a reaction because it's the lack of an understanding that sparked the reaction!

Self confidence isn't an ego its being realistic..everything starts with yourself from love..trust and believe..having inner strength is a backbone to your character!

Pain is my drive and will!

Pain is my drive and my will..this didnt stop my ambition but fueled it more..no stress and no worries is what I live by..broken into pieces..building myself back..and cant settle for less than what I was achieving before this road block..still got high goals and dreams that are tied to an identity leading to success and satisfaction..making that focus a reality!

Don't miss your moment!

My sister gave me a book to read while waiting at the hospital..if it wasn't for my battery getting low I wouldn't have read it..'Don't miss your moment' is what its called..all it took was 2pages and some words..Don't miss your moment when God is calling you back..He has love for all of us..there's no hate because hate came from sin and God never sinned..God is love..He knows your life before you live it..every step and act are words to the book our life is writing..when that day comes all He'll do is read our book and He'll know everything about us..so we can't try to lie..we all have a piece of God in us because we're made in his image..the Bible has so many stories about that..I believe I'm a living testimony..if I stay blind to God then all my survival will feed me an ego and that's a believe in myself and not Him..that believe is so real its written all over my skin..drilled into my mind..and beating with my heart everything needs to make sense to me to understand from religion..love..trust..faith..believe..hope ..goals and dreams

Getting angry is human nature..turning that anger to action is a sin..sometimes I have the most serious thoughts but everything happens for a reason and I have the realest reasons to have these thoughts!

Attraction vs Beauty!

An attraction isn't beauty and beauty isn't an attraction..beauty goes beyond an appearance but an attraction doesn't..beauty is from the inside an attraction from the outside..an attraction catches your eyes..beauty catches your heart..you can lose attraction but you cant lose beauty!

What it is!

Always re-think..I double think that feels like having two opposite thoughts for the same thing..thinking for and against myself..whatever thought has a stronger hold has a longer stay..a choice is a decision..a decision is a choice that has a result..and every result had a decision..which came from a choice..I'm my worst enemy..woke up in a bad thought and in art therapy I express what I feel and think..but today I was silent and through the discussions my words are liked that they kept looking at me for a respond but when I'm trapped in thoughts my silence is sanity..its good that through my situation I can inspire others with my serious thinking and words..behind every sun there's rain and behind every rain there's sun..I can't and won't settle for less than what I can achieve doesn't matter about my injury..it doesn't depict my life..if I give in..that's losing this battle I'm on!

Mirror!

I stare at the mirror a lot..I woke up from the coma and my first look at the mirror stopped me from looking at myself for a sec..I had no skulls..my head was bandaged..broken nose and jaw..that's like falling asleep and waking to that..eyes are the windows to your soul..I stand in front of the mirror..air phones on with music playing..thinking..and writing thoughts down..where I was to where I am now..that's the power  of God..ambitions are motivation to succeed..success is a gate to dreams..dreams are achieved by goals..goals are driven by will..your will keeps you standing!

Deep thought!

Words come from beats
that vibrate through my ears,
filled with thoughts and expressions, 
describing goals and acts,
its that season and time,
for mental hibernation,
and when that time comes around all the concentration will make sense,
as to why it was done,
want what I need and need what I want,
my situation been depicted,
and that depiction isn't my life,
so it cannot be accepted, 
that's like accepting stress and worry,
worry brings fear,
I been through all fears,
like the fear of living when that living is controlled,
by controlled things,
till I lost the dependence,
and was back in control,
and gained independence,
I'm never going back,
to losing my grip,
my feet staying planted,
to this ground that I'm building,
that's leading to a distant,
A distant is a goal,
a goal is a dream,
a dream is vision,
a vision is a plan,
a plan toward success!

Thought at mind!

No matter how far back your placed,take the same amount of steps forward, every step down is a step up,strengthen your choices and empower each decision to have a better out come from any situation,
its not how the sun rises but how it sets,a story starts,changes then ends, be in control of life..taking no pause,only pause was the coma,till reality smacked like broken glass and opened my eyes..a strong body starts with a strong mind!

3 Differences

1.Power and strength
2.Mental strength and smart
3.Having a life and living a life

Power and strength
Strength is having muscles,muscles are weight having power is combining speed to that strength how fast can you move those muscles that's power

Mental strength and Smart
Being mentally strong doesn't mean your smart and being smart doesn't mean your mentally strong.

Having a life and living a life
You can have a life but not live a life
You can breath,talk,walk that's human nature so that's having a life living a life is what are you doing with that life you have.

Happiness!

Can't chase happiness because you'll change yourself for it,have a time lot,be attached and have expectations..real happiness will find you with no expectations,attachments or time counting for anything to happen,it'll find you when you least expect it or what is in store for you because you'll never know how that happiness can and will affect you when you have expectations and attachments that's giving and putting a limit on happiness because if it doesn't go by those limits there's no happiness..happiness cannot be limited its limitless!

Priorities before intentions..priorities are what you need to do and intentions are what you want to do..what you need to do is more important and what you want to do is more fun..priorities open intentions..intentions break priorities!

Letting thoughts go

Super thinking means your stuck into your thoughts so every day the same thoughts are repeated the only way to let them out is like this, writting them down .Goals are goals they are points that gain something, a prize or a win. When goals are set being focused is the way to get there. Never let those goals slip off the grasp of your focality or else all that thinking went no where. Make those choices, walk them steps, feel that pain, enjoy them gains, there is a reason for everything, every breath has to count for something. Have less regrets and more achievements..real talks!

Knowledge is knowledge..there is no one knowledge it's ultimate, there is a size and a weight for the knowledge picked up real knowledge is knowing everything..no one will ever know everything but break it down and know something about it all..combining and placing them together is like a puzzle the more pieces placed the more you see, know and hear because all broken pieces placed together increases it so that fills your mind and makes you mindful!

Success is easy to say but difficult to get,
like having a choice between right or left,
up or down, smile or frown,
too many questions with too many answers,
so which answer is right and which is wrong,
we will never know because no one can figure life out perfectly,
there is no perfect life,
because words,thoughts and acts,
could be right or wrong,
so it's keeping a balance,
because it's just knowing which ever road,
good or bad was liked more,
that will be the answer for the after!

Life

In life you gain, you lose, you suffer, you prosper, you stand, you fall, you cry, you smile, you laugh, you frown,get upset, get happy,be the best, be the worst,what really matters is  keeping a clean mind and clean heart so all the ups and downs are not so bad because life is full of ups and downs but its finding and taking the best out of life..the best way to learn is to fail so you never want to fail again..why you failed is stuck in and why the pass is accepted..learning is realized!

What it turns too

To have a life is free because no one is paying God, but to live a life isnt free, there is a cost in living,food,clothes,schooling etc. But the most important thing is what is done in life because it's a gift, something money cannot buy, we got to show our blessings. Struggles bring achievements and achievements bring struggles. With every good there is a bad and with every bad there is a good. Depends what is bad and what is good to one. Beyond life there is time, because since it all began time and life progressed. So with us the same is applied, since birth thats the beginning and that is when the clock of life started to tick. So the question is how much was progressed since birth? What are the goals? What is the journey? With a journey opens up goals to be achieved. Depends where the journey is going to bring you. What are the steps that will be taken for that journey? That's why life is complicated, there is no right or wrong answer because what is right can be wrong and what is wrong can be right.

Words mean something and something can be everything but it's what something is. To stand out? say a point? represent? What is being represented?what is the point? why stand out? Questions bring answers and with answers bring more question. That's why it's a circle in life and how it can be complicated. It's having a balance which is hard to have when what is standed on moves up or down, right or left. So is there a good or bad life? That depends on what is believed in. Everyone has different believes or any believe at all. You can have good or bad believes, good or bad life, so the answer to a good or bad life will represent which life was lived. So thats why there's a good or bad journey? It all depends where that journey leads you and where it leads you is that a good or bad place? This is why life can't be figured out why it's so complicated because it all depends where you will be lead and if where is being lead too is that a good or bad place? What is good or bad to one?  It's just about living life and taking the best out of it. Making the impossibles possible. Always reach for the best no matter what anyone says or does. Because it's not where you may be at now it's where you will be later.